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How Small

We pulled up to Khalahanji’s off of Main, the silver domes shining behind iron bars nested in a dull penny neighborhood.

“Don’t worry,” Dave said, “they won’t try and convert us. Krishnas accept all.”

We ate at the restaurant inside the temple, the stone courtyard opened to the city smog, the top of Reunion Tower barely visible above the elephant ears and palms.

The waitress brought lentil crisps while we sipped chai tea. A group of nuns were seated in the shade, their table tented by black habits.

Dave smiled, motioning over to them “See?”

My grandfather said he knew when his time would come, and so did his father, and his father’s father. A canvas sling cradled him as the VA nurses moved him to a new bed in the hospice wing. He said the last time this happened, he was being hoisted out of a million dollar plane, now a pile of rust at the bottom of the Pacific. I tried Google earthing it, but the blue green waters were too vast, the cursor on my screen reminded me just how small I was. I changed the view to Cowboy’s Stadium, though the day the satellite captured it a tarp covered the opening; he and I were still in there together among the white chalked lines and sticky seats, our heads pushing to the surface.

My daughter and I were tossing a ball when it landed in the street. A car slowed down as the passenger waved me on. Throwing it back, my eyes met the driver’s, seated under a frosted head of hair. Their bumper sticker read: Proud UT Parent. My daughter waited by the curb with outstretched arms, her hands still fit inside of mine. We both watched the caravan of clouds overhead until they were washed golden in the distance.

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So sorry for your loss Meg, sounds like she led an amazing life, sending thoughts of comfort to your family in this time 🙏🏼

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